Fall

well one year has passed since I moved to this place and so much has happened. I completed a whole season of selling plants and produce at the Sugarhouse and People's markets. I have lots of pictures to add to this so much has changed! This is a picture of me watering my plants, it was a picture by my sneaky little sister who thought it was cute that I looked so much like a "Carey" meaning I look eccentric like my Aunts or my Grandmother. Brady asked me later in the day why I was wearing this outfit. It felt appropriate for the weather conditions, i.e. 100+ degrees. You can see my plants potted up in my ecoforms biodegradable pots, I spent a fortune on them, which time will tell if it was a mistake or not, for now I just enjoy looking at them so I guess it was worth it.

I finally moved to a house with some property. I have wanted to start a greenhouse and small farm, and that is really becoming a reality. I will post more on that as things improve. So far I have planted a few native plants and some extras from gardening.

A little history, I have been gardening for about ten years now. It has kinda become a career, but in recent months I decided that gardening wasn't providing enough for me to live. I will try to write later about the challenges in gardening as a young woman in a hot dry and seasonal place. Not to discourage anyone from doing it, it definitely builds character, but after it all just being ready to move on, I feel a little shameful because I never overcame those challenges. I lost the drive and the energy that it takes to do that kind of work. and believe me, I will always pay top dollar to whoever is willing to do that, mainly cause it sucks, and it takes a lot out of a person just to be out there doing it.

So , my blog is called adventures in gardening, maybe no on has ever read it! maybe someday I will talk about gardening and not all this other bullshit.

Starting Over

This week is a major starting point, I guess they usually call them turning points, but to me it's just the beginning. I am old, I am smarter, and I am just deciding what to do with this life of mine.
I feel that when I was younger I believed so much that I could do whatever I wanted, to the point that it actually clouded my perception of the world around me.
With countless dreams and ideas, and endless possibilities, and also the ability to make other people believe that since I believed in it, and I live in a very polite place, no one could tell me that I won't achieve greatness. Much to my dismay, early on in my quest I found great disappointment and heartbreak. Of course I was heart broken, I was an artist, an idealist, and also blindly headed wherever I was going. I try sometimes to find ways to not regret some of the things I did, but in all honesty I was and probably still am, just treading water.
I started school today, which creates a new path for me, instead of trying to grind it out on my own, I think I am going more towards stability, whatever that is. The idea of stability is so foreign to me that it actually feels like someone else saying it, or like I am in a lucid dream.
Stability has never been close to me, so I guess that is the greatness that I am going to strive for, to some that may seem very simple or trivial, but it seems belated to me.
Stability, will it make me more of an artist? Will feeling comfort make me bored and push me to create? All of these questions make me feel young again, like I still have a lifetime to learn, and maybe I am not an artist after all, maybe I get by, maybe I don't.

I started this blog because I need a creative outlet, or maybe even just a place to write my thoughts, dreams, and experiences, a virtual friend if you will. I am in a place in my life where I am ready to begin something new. I have spent many years working on a Gardening business that has kept me sane for a long time but is now beginning to feel like it's blocking my creativity, so while I figure out a way to make my life work, I will be documenting my thoughts and projects on this blog, maybe I can somehow find a sense of progress.
My internal dialogue has become quite critical and it feels productive to be able to put it in words online. I was reading another woman's blog and felt like it took a lot of courage to post personal thoughts and feelings on the internet, it also seemed like a great way to sort through a sea of thoughts and emotions.
some things that I want to do are:
learn how to be a web designer
finish my landscape design course
take a course in photography and photo shop
create a whole web page of my creative work, be it landscaping, painting, photos, or writing
build my greenhouse, and document the project
start growing and selling plants
take pictures of all the gardens that I take care of
take pictures of plants that I find interesting
make a data base of plants that I have taken pictures of

Kamakazi Tomato

I accidentally dropped my lovely tomato, it had been warmed by the sunshine and felt like it was about to burst before it jumped out of my hand and splatted on the rock.

First Official blog. Thinking about blogging kind of made my head spin with ideas, so many that I decided to quit brainstorming and just start blogging. SO here it is my first step into the world of blogging, and here we go....